Assalamualaikum w.b.t everyone!
I hope that it's not too late to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and Maaf Zahir Batin ! Sorry because no duit raya from me since I'm already broke before July comes hahahaha *kidding*. Later when I get married, I'll make sure that I'll give everyone (who supposed to receive) duit raya! Keceng keceng *wink*
Looks like that I'd been neglected my blog for a very looong time haha. Well, it's not actually I forgot the password or got myself a boyfriend or ... (hey! Too many or lorrr!) I just don't know how to express my feelings in writing since I've wrote one, which I don't remember when is the last time that I'm overflowed with ideas to write; and of course, an exception goes to work and assignments ☺
Yeah, for everybody's information, I'm still working, getting paid monthly, sitting at my desk, in front of my PC and browsing internet, which sometimes can be out of work matters hahaha (I bet I'm not the only person on earth who do this!).
1 year and 8 months.
Already huh? The time flies so fast. At first, I doubt that I will survive in this working hell world less than a year. But somehow, I did. In the next 4 months, it would be my 2nd year working! uhuuu ~ Tua dah jeera hahaha.
People always ask me,
"You work or student?"
"Wah! So lucky for her to have a gomen job in such a young age!"
"Working in public sector is everyone's dream."
But, it also possible when people talk behind my back like,
"She got the job because she has some connection with people who has power lah."
"She doesn't has talent pun, but maybe terer in flattering top man (management)."
And haha... I don't care. It's not like those people gonna pay my bills and support my studies. What made they say that is because maybe they are not fortunate as we are. Well, I'm not implicitly saying that they are very unlucky in their lives-- it just they cannot see other people happier than them.
Crap.
Want to know something? A bad thought has lingers in my mind.
There's a day, I will sit and monologue myself, why I'm wasting my youth makin' money when it's time that I should further my study and chase my dream to be a lawyer? And at that same time I realized quickly, it's Allah has paved the road of my life because He knows what best for me. Maybe He wants me to help my family financially and give them happiness. Since two of my younger sisters are in university and it cost a lot of fortune to support them, then I have no regret to sacrifice a little bit though.
So the point is, keep husnudzhon in Allah's plans. There's saying, "There always comes rainbow after rain."
Do recheck yourself whether something not good happens today and it pissed you off, what did you do to overcome your anger and annoyance?
If you keep still and waiting the matters to cool down patiently, applause!
But if it is in otherwise, don't worry. You still got chance to turn it around and start over. Unless the sun rises at west, you still own the chance to change, dear.
Keep your faith and do good!
Regards,
never-be-matured-selekeh-girl.
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